Doubt

Sometime it hits me. Then I notice that it has been building up slowly until I am overwhelmed. Normally it happens when I am stressed and worried. It never happens when I feel happy and secure, but I guess that is to be expected.

So, at the moment I’m going through a massive amount of doubt. I doubt that I will finish the book (there is only half a chapter to go), I doubt that I will make any money, I doubt that anyone will want to read it, I doubt that I can draw…

Well, you get the idea.

I don’t know whether it is simply because I am stressed but it has hit hard the last couple of days. I have been trying to sort out broadband and a new hub and it has left me with a stress headache and a glum feeling.

It is all sorted now but it hasn’t been plain sailing.

So I have had to force myself to sit and work. It hasn’t been easy. Especially when I find myself doubting whether my writing is any good.

My editor tells me that it is, but I can’t help but wonder.

Anyhow, I know I will snap out of it. I have to. Now that everything is sorted I expect to be back to my normal bouncy Kate before long and once I get there all the doubts will have disappeared. Until then I will continue to squeeze blood from a stone.

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2 thoughts on “Doubt

  1. I can identify with this a little…perhaps doubt is a part of life that will always appear but we have to remember that there are also happy moments when it will disappear. Oh and btw I like your writing a lot, don’t doubt that😊

    1. Thank you. That brings a smile to my face and the new book will be in ready soon.

      I think doubt is something we have to cope with to remember the good times. Like a ying and a yang. 🙂

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