Sometime it hits me. Then I notice that it has been building up slowly until I am overwhelmed. Normally it happens when I am stressed and worried. It never happens when I feel happy and secure, but I guess that is to be expected.
So, at the moment I’m going through a massive amount of doubt. I doubt that I will finish the book (there is only half a chapter to go), I doubt that I will make any money, I doubt that anyone will want to read it, I doubt that I can draw…
Well, you get the idea.
I don’t know whether it is simply because I am stressed but it has hit hard the last couple of days. I have been trying to sort out broadband and a new hub and it has left me with a stress headache and a glum feeling.
It is all sorted now but it hasn’t been plain sailing.
So I have had to force myself to sit and work. It hasn’t been easy. Especially when I find myself doubting whether my writing is any good.
My editor tells me that it is, but I can’t help but wonder.
Anyhow, I know I will snap out of it. I have to. Now that everything is sorted I expect to be back to my normal bouncy Kate before long and once I get there all the doubts will have disappeared. Until then I will continue to squeeze blood from a stone.