I am having problems with the dissertation. It isn’t that I hate the story or that I am worried where it is going, it’s just that I feel pressure. I am worrying that I have the age range right, or if I am using the right words, or if the chapters are too short, or…
Well, you get the idea. I think it is because University is almost back and I was hoping to have finished the first draft. I mean it is almost there. Only another 4000 words and it should be done. But still I am finding myself stalling.
I think it’s because I want it to be perfect. I mean who writes a first draft perfectly… I mean now that we have computers.
I was thinking about it the other day. Victorian writers must have written only one draft. I mean they were hand-written. How long would that have taken? You must have needed to think about each word. Every mistake would mean at least one page being re-written. That is mind-blowing.
I remember going to school and having to write my essays. It was a nightmare with the dyslexia, The onset of the computer brought about the change in my writing, although it took another twenty years to realise I could use it to tell a story. I’m not all that fast. 🙂
Still I am having problems getting the dissertation on the computer, but at least I don’t have to hand-write it. That is the stuff of nightmares!
What I’ve got to do is forget everything and just write. That is so easy to type, but so hard to put into practice. Still I’m going to do my best over the next week to get it finished.